floating
'Start your ignition. Begin your journey and do not skip ahead.' -'Elizabethtown'
I tend to watch this movie about once a month… It's one of my favorites. It has jewels of wisdom throughout, the soundtrack is amazing, and it has a cameo of Paula Deen, which every Southerner can appreciate. 
However, lately, I've had so much going on that I've decided that I'm tired of always feeling like I should map out every single solitary thing that comes on my plate. I'm jealous of people that get to float through life. Yeah, yeah, it's part of my personality to be pretty Type A and organized, but come on! For once, I'd like to just walk and let the journey take me… and not the other way around. So, I've decided to do that. Because, really, I don't really want to know the entire ending, I do like surprises… or at least the good ones.
Now, while I'm in the middle of that, I'm finding it's one of the hardest things to do. Of course, it's probably not for the normal floaters. But for those that like to have some control over their environment or schedule, I don't like not knowing what tomorrow may or may not bring… especially when the checkbook gets tight. I have to remember that money doesn't rule the world, though. Times like these make me want to be more like my friend Deb, whose life-long dream is to move to Haiti and rock babies to sleep. No frills, no fuss… just her dream.
In the midst of my traveling on my journey toward finding what I truly want to do, I'm always pulled by so many sides. I have friends and family that want me to stay in one place or another for this reason or that reason. Money ALWAYS comes up, and it's usually cheaper to be in one place over another. Then, there's the issue of safety, distance, blah, blah, blah. But, then there is the age-old advice, also given by my friend Deb: follow your heart.
As I'm trying to follow my heart, the only question in the back of my mind is if my journey will also listen to my heart… my mind and my heart are in sync. Now if the path and the opportunities line up, my ducks will be in a row, and all will be at peace. And, to be perfectly honest, that's all I really want… because to me, floating is equivalent to feeling at peace.
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