strong argument
well, today wasn't all together that great.
the sleep that had obviously finally caught up with me. and that isn't good.
i left school early today. around 2 o'clock, i decided to start throwing up. well, i say i decided, but that wasn't the case. my body decided it. my head had been hurting since that morning, but i just ignored it. by this, i knew that a migraine was on its way. and, for me to stay at school without meds or rest until 6 p.m. was not a good thing.
and after running a few small errands, i got home. i took some medicine, and within 30 mins i was feeling a little better. the exhaustion hasn't been remedied yet though. i almost fell asleep during dinner. and that's not good.
so now it's almost 10 p.m. and i haven't gone to bed yet. when i finished with dinner, i finished up my stuff for 139 training just in time for the debate.
i had to force my eyes open to watch it. but i taped it, so i will watch it again. so far, i can recollect… kerry didn't talk about his purple hearts as much, and bush was really defensive. i feel a stronger leading… but not enough to know yet. they did have strong arguments. did you know that most on-the-fence-voters are women? wow, just found that out. the biggest issue in my mind is the war… i have 2 friends fighting over there, and i want to know when they can come home. i'm not OK with indefinite plans or timelines. sure, that's being pushy, but i want some answers. that's all. my voting decision will be based on that factor more than anything. there are important issues in my mind right under that, health care, education, the economy… i need to know that those will be taken care of as well. maybe i'll know about those before too long. oct. 8 will be coming soon.
i'm going to bed. i have to rest before the training weekend. g'night.
laughter is the best medicine.
today wasn't too bad. in fact, i'm glad today happened.
work was this morning… it was good. easy today. that was good. although, i swear, tonight has to be a full moon, because the entire school was going nuts.
i walked down to get a drink from the soda machine, and stopped by the 2 year old room and saw micah grate. when he came over, he asked me to play with the class. it was so sweet. when kathy came to pick him up, he said that he wanted to go play with 'daddy's friends' (a.k.a. camp people). can't wait for him to come and play this weekend. cutest kid…
after work, i went and met with amy parsons vaughn, one of our associate pastors, and had a great long chat. i got to tell her my 'story'. she said she loves to hear how people get where they are from wherever they came from. neat stuff. she is the coolest.
i feel much better about what's been in my mind lately. i feel even more comfortable with the path that it's heading. i'll be excited to see what happens, but if it has to wait a little longer, then it might be yucky. i just have to be patient.
after that, i headed down to helena for a visit with holli mack, and to look for some stuff for the training weekend. wow. we laughed so much. it was so great. funny… if you didn't know, God and her senior pastor are the same… ha ha! ok, maybe not. but that was the funniest moment that i can remember. except when she saw the bush/blair 'endless love' video. i think she almost hyperventilated.
then, we went hunting for things, and i took myself out over a pew. that hurt like crap. but, in hindsight, it was just the stupidest thing i've ever done. geez.
i left there and was completely exhausted. i had so much homework to work on, and i just needed some dead time. so, i missed out on disciple tonight. ugh. i feel bad, but i'm about to go to sleep… and it's almost 9 p.m. i need some rest. deep rest.
tomorrow night is the debate. normally, i'd have my astronomy lab. but i'm taking the option to be at another one. i don't want to miss the debate. they're talking about national security. so, i'll be glued to the t.v.
too much to do right now, and it seems like not enough time. i guess i'll catch up soon. i've got the next 2 weekends after this one to work on getting caught up. that will be so nice. oh, so, so, so nice.
holli, just so you know, that week that you were asking about isn't too full. if homewood is out too, then i won't be working. so i have no clue. we'll see.
for now, i'm going to bed in just a few mins. i'm gone to pray about future decisions and what will become. yay.
never ending…
i've got to start going to bed… this staying up late all the time is about to kill me. i could have gone to sleep around 8:30 tonight, but alas, i did not… conversations and phone calls prohibited. but, i'm OK with it… they were good stuff.
i finally have some closure to the 'friend' situation from a while back. it's about time. the timing was perfect. and i didn't even have to call him… he called me on his own thought. that was nice. and he was totally understanding of my reasoning, and even agreed. wow. then, he apologized… for stringing my heart along. impressive. i have so much more respect now for him.
in light of my thought processes, i am feeling more and more comfortable with where my mind and heart are leading. it's a feeling of home. it feels sudden, but it feels like it's been there all along. my only guess is that i had been denying myself that because it felt like such a secluded life before. but, there is such joy in the aspects that i've been dealing with lately. that is exciting. tomorrow, big meeting with a quasi-mentor-figure to take a shot at exactly what is going through my brain. that outcome may be scary than actually blurting it all out.
so right now… i beg. say a little prayer for me… God knows why. just tell him you're asking on my behalf.
the reverend al green… genius, i tell you. genius. no lie.
school today wasn't too bad… it was just long. why? because of the lack of sleep. i have to catch up on it before too long. either that, or i must start denying myself these ventures on AIM and all that i do at night. i need to make a time that i have to go to bed, and not budge on that… but i doubt i'd ever really do it.
'God is bigger than the air i breathe… the world we'll leave. God will save the day and all will say… my glorious.'
why is it that we tend to turn to God when we need him most? i feel like such a bad child when i do that. i really am sorry, God. it's not intentional. i'm making a better effort to be like you. really.
i've seen the other side… and i've decided that i like where i've been, and i like where i'm going. i choose to look for the side where you will be. i don't want my own side… i want yours.
i'm exhausted. and i need sleep. i have lots to do. but sleep is a major priority. me acuesto. quiero ir a dormirse. buenas noches.
in my mind's eye
in my mind, i conjure up this whole persona. and in my mind, no one likes that person. but, who doesn't have that problem. i'm getting better… at remembering that God made me exactly the way he did for a reason, and because he's God and he's all-knowing, i'm not gonna argue that anymore.
and tonight, i had another reason to believe it… thanks for your info holli. how awesome to hear that news. yay, and thanks. that and i love ambiguity.
big paper got finished tonight. we had to write a summary and critique of research information on poems or stories we've read so far. it's the dumbest assignment ever. come on, at least give me a research paper to do on my own. don't ask me what my opinion is… i do better writing about other people's opinions. and also, summaries of each documented text is REALLY stupid. no lie.
i also have an art history test tomorrow. i'm not worried about it though. i love that class, and i pay lots of attention. so, that's a plus. but i've decided to study for that test after lunch tomorrow before class.
tomorrow will be the short day. and had today not been such a long day, nevermind. i don't even want to think about it.
so, i'm a little stressed for a few reasons… money, school. ok, that's it. but, i am excited about 139… and the training this weekend. it's gonna be rockin'. i just hope that everybody has their stuff done. that would be a really great thing.
ok, i'm going to bed, but first, i thought i'd share a picture. ha ha. this is my cat zoe. and yep, she's a bama fan… this was game day. i thought it was too cute…
<img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v178/DMCemily/myownpics/zoeforbama.jpg" width="300" height="225">
i'm a bleeding heart liberal.
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f.a.q.
today is sunday. the last day of the weekend. in fact, the weekend will be over in a little less than 4 hours. i think i've experienced way too much emotion this weekend…
great stuff. today was dr. j. ellsworth kalas. incredible speaker. he was at the church this morning, and then tonight as well. he went through the entire bible and told why each book was so needed in the bible… phenomenal stuff. i can't believe that he could remember all of that.
i couldn't help but feel like i had a huge hole in my heart this week. i know what it is. and i know how to fix it. the question isn't how to do it… it's if i want to do it. and i think i do.
i keep wrestling with some of the same questions in my head. it's a constant battleground that i can't seem to ever understand.
'sometimes i believe all the lies so i can do the things i should despise. and everyday i am swayed by whatever is on my mind. i hear it all depends on my faith so i'm feeling precarious. the only problem i have with these mysteries is they're so mysterious. and like a consumer i've been thinking if i could just get a bit more… more than my fifteen minutes of faith, then i'd be secure. my faith is like shifting sand, changed by ever wave. my faith is like shifting sand, so i stand on grace.'
i'm constantly plagued with the questions of who i really am… who i am going to be. and in light of the fact, that i have had the chance to experience both ends. i've almost made up my mind… of who i actually WANT to be. i've still got questions… and i'm investigating into them for the next few days or weeks. i'll be excited to see what i find out.
i feel like i'm in a big maze, and i haven't the slightest clue which way is the beginning and which way is the end. how did i get turned around so quickly?
but, strangely enough, i'm not mad or upset. i think it's because i'm on the verge of a big jump. and that has a little excitement to it.
here's a special treat for you. just because it's so freakin' hilarious. <a href="http://politicalhumor.about.com/library/multimedia/bushblair_endlesslove.mov">you have to see this…</a> and i'm not putting it up for any other reason other than the creativity of the art. so don't jump to any assumptions…
i have a paper due tuesday that i haven't started writing yet. i also have a test in art history (that one i'm not hugely worried about). let's see if anything else can go wrong on that day… it's already booked solid. busy busy time.
i am stressed when it comes to other matters. money mostly. it seems that i have a small paycheck because i work part-time. i'm still not used to that. it's a huge adjustment to go from full-time to part-time. well, almost barely part-time. but i love my job. i keep praying that the last 2 checks i'm expecting will come in soon. plus, i will hopefully get a paycheck on wednesday. so that might help too. i'll be glad to turn my phone back on… ha ha. and yes, i know that it's not going through.
ok, i'm going to finish working on the study guide for the art history test. and maybe read the research stuff i did today for my paper. that might be important.
why… tell me why.
enjoy the moonlight.
so tonight, instead of hitting up the sidewalk film festival, i decided on hang time with my best friend mollie. we went to the moonlight music cafe. and since i've become addicted to the pictures that i've taken with my brother's camera, i'm sharing.
me and mollie (the infamous best friend)
<img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v178/DMCemily/myownpics/mollieandemily.gif">
tonight, we saw 3 artists… one of them i didn't favor too much, so there's not a picture of her. but, here's the pics of the 2 we enjoyed:
katy bowser:
<img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v178/DMCemily/music/katy1.gif">
and jimmy atto:
<img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v178/DMCemily/music/jimmy1.gif">
katy is mollie's roommate in nashville, and runs around with the likes of derek webb, sandra mccracken and allison krauss. it's rockin'. i love katy to death… she's the sweetest gal ever. and tonight, she brought her fiancé to play with her… he used to play with bill mallonee. and to me, that's really cool. i love katy's voice. she did such a great job.
jimmy atto was really funny, and has a john mayer-ish kind of sound, but without some of the pop. great show.
altogether, i had a blast… plus, i got to hang out with mollie, which is always a plus. she's moving back in a month and a half or so. i can't wait. it will be so great to have my best friend here… words can't describe it. i can't wait. PLUS, she asked me tonight to design her invitations… no preset stuff, and she definitely doesn't want the traditional feel! so, i'm pumped, and she said she was so excited to have me put them together!
so the day was good, other than the fact that bama lost today… the score is so deceptive. i was so impressed with their first half play. and even into the 4th quarter. it was almost like they just lost momentum. i didn't understand it. it was so not the usual alabama football. i don't know what was up. but i did get to watch the game with my dad… we have fun watching it, and making fun of my mom who tries to understand it. it's so funny.
so i just had a great moment… holli and company saved me a seat at 'alice' thinking i was coming. but because i'm an idiot, and thought that holli was gonna call me. big misunderstanding that i'm finding out now. but thanks for saving a seat… that was so cool to hear. sorry i'm a dork, but definitely another time. 
ok. it's 1 a.m. these late nights are gonna kill me this week when school gets here. tomorrow is j. ellsworth kalas at trinity, and then i get to work on my paper, and study for tests… joy! yeah, no. so i better head to bed.
you can carencro me anyday…
oh my gosh. tonight is officially the best concert i've ever been to… tom petty, i'm sorry, but you had to step down for a bit. 
but i still got love for you. no lie.
marc broussard tonight at workplay was phenomenal. oh wow. i've never been swept off my feet with music… it was incredible music… music for music sake. full of soul, and marc wailing it… who is he? well, this is he…
<img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v178/DMCemily/myownpics/marcbroussard.gif" width="150" height="279" align="Middle"> <img src="http://www.marcbroussard.com/pictures/MB-B_W_Finger_Pointing.jpg" width="223" height="279" align="Middle">
tonight's line up was…
blue merle to open:
<img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v178/DMCemily/myownpics/bluemerle.gif" width="400" height="109" align="Middle">
then, marc broussard and his band:
<img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v178/DMCemily/myownpics/marcandband.gif" width="400" height="120" align="Middle">
and the final picture… i went with my friend melissa (the bold):
<img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v178/DMCemily/myownpics/meandmav.gif" width="300" height="184" align="Middle">
ok, so… between blue merle and marc broussard, we headed out to the bar area for a few mins. as we were chatting, i glanced over and mentioned to melissa that there was this insanely good looking guy across the way. he had on a kelly green shirt and a hat (you know the cool hats, like jason mraz and justin timberlake have… not the trucker hats, the other ones, yeah, got it? ok, good). wow. and then i looked over at the other end of the bar, and there's this other guy with a similar hat… and he's a hottie too. so i guess i have this thing for the hat.
we headed into the theatre for the main show. they announced them, and all of a sudden, my jaw drops… who was i scoping out at the bar? marc and his drummer. good taste fellas. you were all amazing.
if you haven't heard marc broussard, you should… it's great… very louisiana blue-sy feel. and his voice is absolutely amazing. they put on such a great show. my heart was beating a million miles a minute… to enjoy the music was just… i don't have a big enough vocabulary. the show sold out, there were people everywhere just enjoying the music.
towards the end of the show, they ended with a big closer… and then started playing some 'traveling' music. they were just jamming… it had the usual blues walk-ups and beats… then they just started going crazy each one of them… broussard was making up stuff as he went, and while he was at it, he broke a string… they were tearing up the guitars. so the real big closer is them jamming it out with big endings, and then they just start pulling the strings from the guitars… acoustics, bass, every guitar they were playing. it was insane.
afterwards, we stuck around and met the drummer and marc broussard, told them that the show was just amazing. it was a superb night.
i was sad that i didn't get to go to the over/under party. but after looking to see what my budget was, it was impossible to be able to spend the money on the gas to get down there and back… and even if i went, i would have only been able to stay for like 30 mins because of the previous plans for marc broussard.
other than the concert, today has been kind of dull… and full of let-downs. the concert was definitely what i needed. but now i have a headache… too much of it all. i'm going to bed, because i'm exhausted. and by the way, in preparation for tomorrow, roll tide.
i've got the ark of the covenant!
ever checked out albinoblacksheep.com? well, you should.
here's one of the <a href="http://www.albinoblacksheep.com/flash/jesus.php">jesus action figure with walk-on-water-action</a>. so it may be a <em>little</em> blasphemous, but you have to see what happens at the end if you redeem your upc codes!
also, check out the <a href="http://www.albinoblacksheep.com/flash/pingpong.php">matrix ping pong match</a>.
enjoy… and have a great friday. smile, the week is over.
why?
because everyone else is doing it… and i was curious.
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