other things…
ben harper is a genious. i'm convinced. but then again, i feel like many people were born with ingenious ways. take me for example.
ha ha. yeah, i figured that would make you laugh.
still wondering what will come of the whole fiasco with the convo partner. hmm… that's still spinning circles in my head.
'don't you get ahead of me and i won't leave you behind.'
i'm always afraid of being in last place. is this a common fear for a fearless first born? yeah, fearless. i got that one. whatever. i want to do well. i don't necessarily want to be first (yeah i do), but it'd be nice to keep from being last. just once. that's all i ask.
'you were meant for me, i believe you were sent to me from the dreams traded to my heart.'
i love my camp friends. i love camp and the community it brings. and that community leaves and brings in more. it's amazing. i was in oneonta tonight, and i was so close to camp. i couldn't go. i wanted to cry.
tonight as i was driving, i kept watching the moon. it was full tonight. of course, half the time, i did have to watch the road. i only ran off of it a few times (6). it was incredible. it made me want to lay out in the driveway. of course, i'd freeze in these shorts tonight, and the mosquitoes would have a hay day. so i decided against it. the full moon had to have been the reason i've felt so crazy… so rebellious, ready to rile people up. it's probably a good thing that the restaurant i went to was in blount county… and it's dry.
i went to mi casita tonight with one of my best friends melissa. we basically grew up together. she's probably my oldest friend that i still keep up with… she's just awesome. after that, we went to her house to watch austin powers: goldmember. that thing is like 2 years old… i still laugh like it's the first time. it's too funny.
'my beloved one… my beloved one.'
one of the happiest sounds my computer makes is when i'm in XJournal and a friend updates. it does the medeeleme noise from strong bad's guitar email. truly a happy moment when that goes off. i find myself writing faster to see what people have jotted. yeah, i'm a dork. but whatever. it makes me smile.
full moon still has an effect after seeing it. i'm restless. and i can't explain it. i should go to bed before too long. i might end up leaving to find something to do… no, i shouldn't. that wouldn't be good.
'we have both been here before knocking on love's door, begging for someone to let us in.'
today we watched slides of chile in spanish after our test. magnificent place. i wanna go so bad. i wanna do something away from here. something great, amazing, cool. i think it's that need to feel accomplished. what better way than to have a passport labeled spain, chile and argentina. mmmm… dreams are great. i wanna do something i've never done. but, i'm sorry, skydiving and bungeejumping are out of the question. any ideas?
i had this crazy dream the other night. i dreamt that i was hiding behind a recliner, and a man came out of the doorway with a woman and a gun to her head. i jumped up and yelled, and he shot me in the forehead. twice. i woke up the next day, and no lie, there are 2 bites on my head from some creature i guess. no idea when they got there. maybe it was a baby vampire. maybe not.
i want a tattoo. well, not really. i want the thought of the rebellious nature of a tattoo. but not the hurt. i also want my nose pierced, but i seriously doubt i'll ever go through it. it looks like it's time for another aversion piercing to keep me from doing something stupid. the bad thing is… i can't do it right now. my ears are still healing from camp when they got infected. that, and i have no money. boo.
ok, seriously, full moon. weird stuff. i'm sorry.
it's probably best that i go to bed. it's been a very mentally stressing day so far. and i just want to stop thinking.
'my beloved one…' lotsa love. g'night.
